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May. 15th, 2008 @ 04:10 pm Help?
 I have no idea how to research this, but maybe someone out there knows.  If you grow up in California and get your license when you turn 16, then move to NJ (where the driving age is 17), they don't revoke your driving privileges, do they?  I mean, the normal kid would just use their California license until they turn 17 and then apply for a NJ license, right?  Right?  (And of course be the coolest kid in the sophomore class.)

Thanks for any help...
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May. 15th, 2008 @ 09:17 am No Longer Shooting for that 3%

You know how they say that the average human only uses 2% of their brain?

Ok, not sure how they figured that one out, but I always thought, how cool would it be to use more? 

But now I'm thinking, not so much.

Human brain = scary.

If you want further proof, just take a look at this.

Thankful Thursday:  
They may seem like little things, but they're not:
I am thankful for the 2%.
And I am thankful for downtime.






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May. 13th, 2008 @ 09:03 am We've Arrived at the Far Side. How Do You Like the View?
Is it weird that at various points in my life, during certain situations, I will inevitably recall a relevant Far Side cartoon?  I admit to being a huge Gary Larsen fan when I was growing up, but really, the Far Side hasn't published in like, 13 years (sob).   So it's pretty amazing that those cartoons still stick in my head.

For example, last night I was watching the amazing BAND OF BROTHERS on DVD, which was loaned to us by my brother-in-law.  I  hear Stephen Ambrose's book is amazing, too, but have not yet read it.  Anyhow, as I was watching, I couldn't help but think of that Far Side cartoon which shows the stages of human evolution.   A little squid-like creature grows and grows, becoming more and more human, then more and more strong and formidable and altogether Schwarzenegger-ish, depicting the work of Survival of the Fittest.   Then, the last stage, is a short, fat, bald dude, wearing a suit and carrying a briefcase.

If you know the Far Side, I have no doubt you know what cartoon I'm talking about.

While watching Band of Brothers, I couldn't help but think that those soldiers, those brave, fearless men of my grandparents' generation, were the penultimate depiction in Larsen's cartoon.  Those were the greatest--the strongest, the bravest, the most selfless.  Since then, so many of us (not all of us, thankfully), have fallen into short, fat, bald, pathetic.  Not in a literal sense, though.  We think that just because we want something, it should be ours.  We don't take responsbility for our own actions and instead rely on other people to provide for us.  We talk about "finding our happiness" and don't care who we have to hurt in order to acheive it.  We don't believe in hard work anymore, or that what you put into something equals the reward you get out of it.

Case in point:  Most marriages I've witnessed are now ending in divorce.  It seems that some people have gotten so wrapped up in the romance of marriage that they forget that it's not all roses, all the time.  It's work.  Sometimes the hardest thing I have to do is give my husband a kiss goodnight.  But my husband and I expect that, we realize that, and so yeah, sometimes it really sucks, but we know it's better than the alternative.  And it sucks for those out there who "think" they know their spouse and "think" they understand the commitment and hard work involved, only to be misled.  If you (or even just one of you) goes into marriage expecting it to be just like your wedding day-- or even a little bit as good, every day-- you'll be sorely disappointed.  It is freaking hard work.  But if you both treat it as such, the rewards are huge. 

I think that's why I look up to my grandparents' generation-- they didn't expect life to be a bed of roses every day.  Because it wasn't.   They didn't expect to get things handed to them.   Because things weren't. They knew about personal responsibility. Because they had to.   They knew about the positives of hard work, because if they didn't, the alternative was much, much worse. 

Why has our society changed so much??  And after all this soul-seeking and happiness-chasing we've been doing, are we really better for it??

Ok, enough blah-blah-blahing.  Are you a Far Side fan?  If so, what is your favorite cartoon?




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May. 12th, 2008 @ 12:47 pm Not Perfect, But Who Is?

I am not sure why my first book is about fairies, since I obviously have a thing for zombies.

Zombies.  Yum. Love them.  Got to see 28 Weeks Later over the weekend.  Now, this wasn't just a nonstop gorefest (although it was that), but it also had its touching moments, too. A lot can be said about a movie that makes you think, wow, actually, I have it pretty good.

Yes, of course, I'm not currently being chased by zombies.  So yeah, obviously I have it better than the people in the movie.

But not only that.  In the movie, the guy and his wife are being chased by zombies.  The zombies begin to close in on her, and what does the loving husband do?  Does he run in and save her?  No!  He gets the hell out of there, leaving her to face the zombies on her own.  Somehow, she ends up surviving, and miraculously, though she's infected, doesn't become a zombie.  She gets taken to the hospital, where her husband, who's been feeling guilty this whole time, sees her and begs her forgiveness.  The wife, out of the goodness of her heart, tells him, that's okay, I love you anyway.  Then he kisses her, gets infected, and eats her.

I don't think there's any way possible to have worse romantic luck than that.

So yeah, my hubby sometimes buys stupid things in O scale.  He sometimes leaves me alone, while I feel like throwing up a lung, to take care of the baby.  And every once in awhile he'll eat the last donut I was saving for breakfast.  But he's never left me to fend for myself in a room full of zombies, or gouged my eyes out before gnawing out my vocal chords.  

Yet.

I guess what I'm meaning to say is that nothing in life is perfect.  I learned that last week, after working on my revisions for my novel for the fourth week in a row.  Every time I opened up the document, I found something that could change.  Something that needed work.  And you know what I realized?  I probably could have opened up that document from now until the zombie apolocalypse and still found things that I hated.  That's why, when I thought I had sufficiently addressed everything on my editor's "to-change" list, I cut the ties and handed it over.  

Yes, it's far from perfect.  I doubt it will ever be.  But it sure beats getting chewed on by a zombie.  Life is pretty much great.
 

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May. 8th, 2008 @ 04:16 pm Been there, done those...

Oh.  I finished my first round of revisions for my editor yesterday.

<<Breathing sigh of relief>>

I will commence worrying whether she likes them on Monday.

 Until then, Happy Mother's Day to me.  And to all you other mothers out there.  (Especially mine! -- love you!:)

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Apr. 29th, 2008 @ 10:16 am Revision Fun
I know I haven't been around much lately.  This is my third week, working on revisions of FL.  So far, this is the way things have gone:

Week One:  Freak out, read the letter.  Freak out some more.  Get excited that my book is finally moving closer to be a reality.  Freak out again.  Read the letter over again.   Wonder if I am an idiot for not realizing that massive plothole.  Mope.  Receive marked up manuscript and realize entire chapter is going to be cut.  Mourn said chapter.  Wonder if I can insert it into my next book.  Read revision letter once more.  Freak out.  Take nap and hope all the answers magically present themselves.

Week Two:  Have taken many naps; have yet to have answers magically present themselves.  Freak out some more that a whole week has gone by and all I've done is read the revision letter.  Decide I should probably reread the manuscript since I haven't read it in eight months.  Scream in horror realizing that the world is actually going to see this garbage.  Mope.  Go through manuscript, make minor changes.  Resolve to remove poor doomed chapter I cried about during Week One, but linger over delete key for several minutes.  Delete.  Pout.  Get headache.  Decide I'd do better work in bed, with a print-out of the manuscript and some sticky-notes to mark anything that needs to be changed or enhanced.  Fall asleep.  Wake up with a bit of drool on cover page.  Turn print-out into a sea of yellow-flags.  Inspect and cry as I realize making these changes will take until 2010 and make the book a completely different book.  Remove half the flags.  

Week Three:  Stare at flagged-up manuscript on table every morning when I go down to breakfast.  Curse it.  Realize that I have not done anything major to fix it yet, but it's all (tapping on head) in here.  Wonder if it really is in there.  Pray it's in there.  Look forward to a moment this weekend when I can actually work on it.  Realize I only have ten more days.  Mope.

I have things under control.  Totally.  I think. 

In other news, I had my author photos taken this weekend.  Though I am by no means a model, it is fun to pretend to be one.  But for some reason my face gets all twitchy when I try to look warm and inviting and give the come-hither, "Don't you want to read my book?" look.

I also got my advance check this weekend.  Well, the first half, anyway.  It was rather exciting because I've never held a check that big before in my entire life.  I had the bank make a copy of it for me, to frame.  I am such a doofus.


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Apr. 14th, 2008 @ 01:32 pm Novel Meme
I am actually way ahead of y'all, for once.  I did that novel meme several years ago!  I thought it would be interesting to call up that post again, because it was from a time when I was very near to giving up on my dream of being a published novelist.  I'd written 20 books and my dream felt very far away indeed.

Click here for all the drama.

Lucky for me, I kept going.

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Apr. 11th, 2008 @ 09:32 am "Scary" Agents
I've noticed a lot of frantic, obsessive posts from writers on the agent search.  Some of these people hold down professional jobs where they communicate with all sorts of high level executives and important clients.  Or they're students who are used to pressure from all the juggling they've been doing.   And yet, when it comes to dealing with agents, these people are reduced to Jell-O.

If you are one of these people, let me first say, Congratulations!  Because you've obviously done your research.  You know how tough it is to get published.  You know the volume of queries that agents receive every day.  You're not going to fire off a quick mass-email to 500 agents about how your "fiction novel" will sell a gazillion copies.  You're past that, and that means you're among a small, elite group of all writers who query-- the writers who are professional, serious, and just plain "get" it.

You've read every article and bit of information on querying that you could get your hands on.  You know what a query is supposed to look like.  You know the rules.   

And still, you worry.  About the silliest things.  Things that no sane person would normally worry about.  For example:  Is that comma in the right place?  Will she reject me because I send 52 pages when she requested 50?  Will she reject me because I status query two months after sending in my full?

Okay, yes, agent hunting is a scary process.  But agents, themselves, are not very scary.  Yes, agents have to deal with a lot of nuts, but if you are professional and approach them with respect, as you would any business relationship, you will receive the same back from them.  They will not send a hit-man after you if you misplace a comma, and they're not just waiting and wanting to reject you because it feels good to them.  Rejection may be hard on you, of course, but it doesn't thrill them, either.  But this is business, and unfortunately feelings are secondary. 

I know it can seem cold sometimes.  I've been there.  But that's why you need to apply the rules of business to your agent search.  Would you be reprimanded or fired for misplacing a comma?  Most likely, no.  Same goes with agents.  If your query holds promise, a misplaced comma alone is not a good enough reason for rejection.  Don't get wound up over it, and if you do get rejected, don't blame the comma.

As business-people, first and foremost, agents are looking for a good book, maybe the next bestseller. That is, without a doubt, the scariest and hardest part of this process--writing the book that others will fall in love with.   Agents? Not so scary.  They are in your corner-- they want to love you.  Once they see you've got a great book, and you're professional to boot, well, you're head and shoulders above 99% of all writers sending out queries.

And in that case, it is only a matter of time before you get an agent.  




   
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Apr. 10th, 2008 @ 09:56 am Revision Letter
I received my revision letter yesterday.  After a quick poll, I've learned the vast majority of authors do the same thing the moment they open it:

Freak out.

It is nice to not feel so alone in this. 
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Apr. 8th, 2008 @ 10:53 am Screwball by Keri Mikulski

 Have you read this book yet?  

Well, I just finished it. It's by Keri Mikulski, a fellow Jersey Girl and sports fan.  Screwball is about Ashley, a talented softball pitcher who is used to dealing with pressures on the field.  But then she meets hottie Andrew, and suddenly, she's dealing with a whole new set of pressures.  How can she make time to be with her new boyfriend?  How can she stop being so jealous whenever she's not with him?  And why does her teammate Christy hate her?
Screwball is a fun, fast read, and though there are scenes with heavy "softball speak", it's not just for sports fans.  It's also a heartbreaking, realistic look at first love, loss, and what it takes to finally move on.  Definitely recommended; If you've ever been dumped, or found yourself juggling multiple priorities, you will relate to Ashley and enjoy Screwball, so do yourself a favor and order it here.

   

 

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Apr. 8th, 2008 @ 07:53 am Rats. I Mean, People.
Aw, I realized my really funny youtube spoof of Soylent Green that I tried to post yesterday didn't go through. Rats. Well, here it is:



Yum. Well, unless they're writer people. Because while writer people are the best people in the world and have great taste, I don't think they'd taste very good. n
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Apr. 7th, 2008 @ 08:01 am It's People, People!
First of all, the lovely [info]anywherebeyond  did fan art cover for FAIRY LUST! It was such a thrill because I probably will not get my real cover for some time, since I am still waiting on revisions to come in. 



Isn't it sexy? Yes, those are fortune cookies in the corner. Teehee.  

I just love [info]debut2009 .  Writer people are the best people in the world.

And secondly, oh, Moses, Moses, Moses. I am so sad, we lost another one of those larger-than-life, honest-to-goodness movie stars over the weekend.





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Apr. 3rd, 2008 @ 08:06 am More is Not Always Better
I've discovered I'm very much of a minimalist.  I get my hair cut twice a year, I don't do the manicure/pedicure thing, and while I may own 300 pairs of shoes and a walk-in closet filled with clothes, it's pretty much because I never throw anything away.

I've come to realize that I don't believe that more is better.  If you spend more money on something, it's not always because it's worth it.  It might be because you're a big sucker who buys into hype.   Case in point, my razor.  What is with these companies adding more and more blades to a razor, and that's supposed to be better?  You know what I'm talking about:




This is actually an old image.  I think the newest is up to five blades, now.  Yep, five.  It looks like a cheese grater.  Which makes us the cheese.  Yeek.

I have both the 4-blade and the one-blade standard (of course, pink!) in the shower.  But I always gravitate to the one-blader.  Why?  Because, silly me, it works.  The 4-blader worked just fine for the first half of my shaving experience (and I am by no means a Yeti) but after awhile all the little hair pieces got caught in the wires designed to give you a "smooth and comfortable experience which will make you want to climb rocky mountains in short-shorts"  (isn't that what it said in the commercial?) and the thing stopped working.  I am not sure how often you're supposed to replace a disposable razor, but with 4-blades, I think it's every 15 minutes.  With 1-blade, I think it's every 15 years.  Seriously.  I have an 8-pack that I bought sometime before 9-11.

Anyways, this isn't just about razors.  It's about life. About sticking with what works.  

In writing, what works for me is creating a really short first draft, then adding and embellishing later.  I do revise scenes as I go along, cutting out the unnecessary, which usually puts my first drafts at 40k.  Most of my writing is humorous, but sometimes the humor doesn't come to me on the first draft.  It's after I read it over that I see the humor in the situation and add in the funny.  Because I do revise as I go along, I don't have a second draft, but if you looked over the number of times I read over my WIP, making changes, I'm sure it's bordering on obsessive-compulsive.
 
I know some people have to put the kitchen sink into their first draft, then start with a clean page and begin writing a second draft.  And it works for them.  So I guess the important part is just finding what you're most comfortable with.

But seriously, do those five-bladed razors work for anyone??
  



 
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Mar. 31st, 2008 @ 09:13 am Vote Carrie!
I used to live in Maine.  And it's times like these when I wish I still did-- so that I could vote for this amazing person!



Have you seen her website?  www.votecarriejones.com  Gosh, I wish she were running for president.  It would make the decision ever-so-much-easier.

Go, Carrie, go!

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Mar. 28th, 2008 @ 09:20 am Covers (a Post NOT Related to David Cook)
Last night, I dreamed about what my cover would look like.   

I think it was  [info]brookesbooks who dreamed that her cover would have flying pineapples or some other crazy, completely nonsensical thing on her cover.  So of course we were pleasantly surprised to see this:


Then there was [info]carrie_ryan , who pretty much KNEW they'd put a spooky forest on her cover.  But they took it one step further, with this:


And I think both covers are just phenomenal. Loads better than either author had imagined.

I mean, I know the covers at Delacorte are great-- they always do a wonderful job.  But we're talking about MY book, here.  All this time, I'd been wondering if they'd take the premise of my book literally, and plop some weird guy faerie on the front.  I'd hoped no, but I didn't know what else they'd do.  Honestly, I have no creativity when it comes to images and pictures, so I couldn't imagine beyond this:



Yet last night I had another thought.  A different direction.  One that could actually tie into a pretty cool promotional opportunity, if I so chose.  And then I realized, my cover will look great!  There are definite possibilities!  I am excited!  I mean, if visually-challenge ol' me could think of something,  I'm sure the experts will have no problems whatsoever.

I shall now spend my time obsessing about more important things, like whether I'll be able to handle the revisions.  

Have a great weekend everyone!

  
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Mar. 26th, 2008 @ 08:26 am Go, David Cook, Go!
I want David Cook to win American Idol, and it's not just because he sings amazingly.  It's because he is a self-proclaimed word nerd.  Yeah, Simon, I know that's not "sexy" according to you, but to me, it is.  In fact, it would be very nice to see that at least one entertainer, when interviewed by ET, knows what's wrong with things like "close proximity", "laxadaisical", and "irregardless."

 That being said, I worry sometimes about the fate of things like penmanship and vocabulary and proper grammar.  Because nobody sends letters anymore, and most correspondence is quickly pecked into a tiny contraption using one's thumbs, omitting vowels and rife with abbreviations like secret code.  

For my day job, I do a lot of emailing.  I never realized that at work, I don't try to find the way of saying things that is most poetic or pleasing or appropos for the character.  There is a standard, unadorned language that is used.  However, since I've been spending my lunch hours writing, I've noticed my two styles of writing tend to get a little confused.  For example, I sent an email yesterday to our system developer, saying that, "Our customers have been clamoring for..."   Ten seconds later, someone emailed me back, "Clamor?  WTF?"  And I'm not exactly sure a teenage girl with a weight problem would step on a scale and say, "This is not acceptable and must be rectified ASAP."  

When you've grown used to doing things a certain way, it's sometimes hard to break out of that rut.  People who've grown accustomed to scrawling quick messages on their Blackberries have sent me emails written in the worst secret code imaginable . . . from their regular keyboard.  Messages now always lack the warmth of  "Dear" and "Sincerely".  Whenever I write notes to people with a pen and actual paper, I sometimes feel like I'm in a foreign country, since I'm so used to typing on my computer.   I used to have a little bump on my thumb from writing my drafts longhand, in notebooks.  It's gone now.

I don't know why this makes me sad.  All I know is that it's not boring or un-sexy to look up to someone with a great vocabulary.   Because now more than ever, he stands head and shoulders above the crowd.



    
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Mar. 19th, 2008 @ 08:33 am Proud Mommy
Whenever I go to pick up my daughter at daycare, all the other kids are in a circle-- playing or dancing or whatnot.  But my daughter is often sitting by herself.  You'd think I'd be upset at this, but I'm not, because what is she doing but.... looking through a book!

And when I get her home, she immediately goes to the bookshelf and pulls out one book after the other, and asks me to read them to her.  She says, "Good book!" and plops herself in my lap. I read maybe 20 books a day to her, many more on weekends.

I wonder where she gets this from?
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Mar. 18th, 2008 @ 08:51 am The Journey
Before I received THE CALL, I had all these misconceptions about what my life would be on the other side of the fence.  Namely, how since one an editor fell in love with my work, I would immediately find this new, unstoppable self-confidence.  I'd be able to boldly saunter up to the likes of Laurie Halse Anderson and John Green and carry on an intelligent conversation.

However, nobody told me that, when turning toward BOOK 2, this would be my thought process:

What if the first book was just a fluke?  What if it was just some God-given inspiration, that has now left me, and I will never be able to publish another book again?  What if my editor was on crack when she decided to buy my book?  Or what if my agent accidentally gave her the wrong manuscript and she ended up buying someone else's book that was mistakenly attributed to me?  What if I can never do it again?  I mean, you put a hundred monkeys in a room for a year and even they'd be able to type out a comprehensible sentence every now and then.  I mean, people like Laurie Halse Anderson-- they're REAL writers.  I'm just a no-talent hack who got lucky.  I'm sure that much will be obvious when my book comes out and people show up at my signings just to gawk at me for my lack of talent. What if  . . .

It can go on and on.  And I know I'm not alone-- most of my friends have mentioned some similar feelings after the sale of their first book.  

It's when you realize that yes, THE CALL has brought you further.  But not all the way there.  And on this trip, I am not sure anyone actually reaches a final destination. Or if there even is one.
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Mar. 10th, 2008 @ 08:40 am Personal Responsibility
It's called PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY, people.  Learn all about what it means so you don't end up like this nitwit here:

http://www.philly.com/inquirer/local/20080309_Compulsive_gambler_sues_seven_casinos.html

Some people just make me SO MAD!!
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Mar. 6th, 2008 @ 09:51 am "Quality" Rejections
I read an article recently in the RWA monthly newsletter about how rejection can help you, and that during your journey you should monitor and collect all the NOs you receive, because if you keep them, you should be able to see real improvement in the quality of your rejections.  For example, the first one will be a standard, form letter, maybe on a scrap of paper.  If you hold it up to the light, it may have a "You Suck!" watermark.  As you progress, you may get a couple personal remarks.  Then finally, right before you're scooped up, some agent or editor will write you a novel-slash-love-letter with phrases like "your talent" and "great potential", and then you'll know you're about to make it.

In case you're pulling out your hair, wondering why all you get is crumpled rejections on half-slips of scrap paper that are signed, "The Editors" or addressed to: "Random Writer,"  I just want to let you know something.  

I have never, ever gotten a nice personal rejection.  

Yes, it is true.  I collected a big pile of scrap papers with the name Cyn Bolog scribbled on them.  I collected many that said things like, "This does not mean to say your work does not have merit" and crap like that; however, three-thousand Joe Schmoes who can barely string two words together also received the same comment.  I've been wished luck and told, "I'm sure someone else will feel differently" by much of the population of NYC.  Not a single rejector EVER took the time to say, "I liked this, but that about your manuscript needs to be fixed,"  or "Keep going, you're good."  My friends were getting pages of suggested revisions from editors, and the cheery encouragement that "We'd love to see it again."  All I ever got were those three famous, horrible words, "Not for me."

Honestly, some of my friends (now published) have gotten some really scathing rejections from editors, before their book was eventually picked up.  And some of my friends have gotten some extremely nice, long, thougtful rejections for their still unpublished books.  It makes me wonder if some editors feel terrible about having to say no to a great project, because they know it will sell elsewhere, and then they'll be faced with the possibility of knowing a mega-best-seller slipped through their hands.  If they know a book is definitely viable elsewhere, maybe they won't bother to offer feedback because it would be a waste of time.  However, if there are definite problems with a manuscript, a definite reason for rejecting it, or if they have a close-and-friendly working relationship with your agent, then perhaps it becomes easier to offer up that long, positive rejection letter.  Of course, I'm not saying that all "not for me"s are positive.  The usual reasons for the quick, "not for me" still remain:  1) The editor hates the writing.  2) The editor hates the premise.  3) The editor hates you. 4) The editor really had to pee or just didn't have the time to read it.  I'm just saying that a "not for me" isn't always negative, just like a long, thoughtful rejection isn't always your ticket to Publicationland.

So this is what I'm saying . . .  What does the quality of your rejections mean to your chances of getting published?  Nothing.  

As if you needed more uncertainity in your writing career.   





     
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